Feeling of Tired~~

I'm feeling extremely tired now...

but not really physically but mentally...

really feel like giving up...

I noe my frens ll be wondering...

I've done my final test n staying in my sweet home...

tat's nothing much i've to worry...

I really dunno wat 2 say n how 2 say...

actually i dun wanna make it a big deal...

i really wan 2 keep to myself but i think i cant...

its really a big burden n i really hope to get rid of it...

everytime when u tell me tat u're facing problems n u're drinking again...

i actually feeling very tired....

i dunno wat i can do to help u n i dunno how long can i take it....

i mean i've been working hard to work on it...

i alwiz wanted someone stronger to be beside me, to guide me, to cheer me, to support me...

i keep on telling myself, it's possible to make it de, if we really try n everyone plays their part...

i'm not blaming u for sharing ur problems wif me...I'm willing to listen to it...

but....Its jz not this way...

I really tired....i dun even noe how 2 face u...it jz doesnt work...

sigh....u alwiz ask me y i alwiz like 2 sigh....

not tat i like 2 sigh...but u're making me very worry...

i might not be any better than u but at least i wont giv up easily....

u'll nvr noe until u try...even if u failed, u still could be proud of urself cuz u've done ur best...

when i was in primary school, i like to join all kind of competition like singing competition, story-telling competition n so on....

i joined every year n i failed every year....

still i nvr give up cuz i'm happy wif wat i'm doing...

i'm not trying to prove anything, but i'm jz being who i m...

frankly speaking, i do wish n hope 2 get position....

but even i dun get any, i wont giv up any chance of joining...

tats my strong point, nvr giv up...

so wats urs? Pls tell me wats urs?!!!

I really wish to noe....really.....there's nothing to support me....

i'm supposed to tell u frankly n face to face....but i dun hav 2 courage....

i thought u should be able to think better than me...

after writing the whole post, i still couldnt get rid of my feeling of tired....

mayb i should jz go off now....

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Update my life~~

May and I have been taking pictures while we are waiting for WonLin. So when finally she came, we took pictures with her as a proof lo. She's so slow la...Sigh..Hopefully she wont see this line, or else she ll kill me..Please, dun tell her....

Can hardly see our eyes also...Smile until mouth so big...It's actually to show that we're very very extremely happy...^^

I'm calling WonLin to ask her to come down faster...But it takes so long to get her on phone. So May got nothing to do, then she took my pretty face lo. I look so cool rite? So professional in answering phone.. Ha..^^

This picture's still quite normal, though smiling, still can see our beautiful eyes.Yeah~~^^

We're trying to smile gently we did smile till so gentle n cute..We look so sweet rite? Love myself more n more when i'm admiring my pictures...^^

Sorry...Forget to update my life...

wahaha...jz post a blog about my sis...

then i jz realised i haven really updated my life...

so basically, I'm having my final exam now...

but it's going 2 end soon..

I'm waiting to finish my last paper then I'll be going home..^^

life has been busy n tough? busy is true la but tough ma...

i dun think my life is tat tough...

I know how 2 handle my life....

then wat else happening?

oh, my laptop spoil d...

so sad...cant on at all...

so hav 2 bring home n fix it...

based on wat my fren said, my laptop ll nid 2 reformat...

sigh...everything inside my laptop ll gone...

then...

cannot update d...

fren asking me to go off d...

wait ah...ll update very soon de..

take care...miss n love u lot...^^

p/s: At 1st, I really wanna update my life only. But thinking my dear May, i think i should post bout her since she cares so much for me. I'll find one fine day n blog bout her de, k? If anyone wanna date her, can ask me? I'll help her to arrange..^^

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My dearest sister, Zhen~~

Dear Zhen..this's the 1st time i use ur name to blog oh...

Thx a lot for caring me so much..

actually, everything's ok wif me d..

u got to trust ur sis ma..

I'm so smart, surely i noe how 2 handle n settle stuff rite?

I'm glad to hav u as my sis..

really, u're so nice to me...

proud to hav u as my sis..yeah...^^

anyway, i'm supposed to busy with my last paper recently...

BUT....

i'm NOT...haha....

instead, i'm having lot of fun...

but dun worry, i wont forget my duty as a student de...^^

another thing is i wont be going home soon....

so i hav bought the ticket to go KL on Mon...

ll shop a while there n might be going to Genting if we hav d chance...

no worry, though i'm not coming back early, i promise i'll buy u present de k?

let me see ya...wat should i buy le?!

hmm...Kuma-Kuma? Kuku-Malu? 

i noe la, u wan turtle la...

i miss home so much....

nvr see u for months d n i'm supposed to call home...

ok, i'll call u tonight...

then i should update my life...Yeah~~

Act i really wanna to go fo movie wif my frens de...

but i promised to watch a lot of movies wif u when i'm back rite?

So i din watch lo....

so prepare ur pocket money, make sure u hav enough money ya..

then i'll fetch u to cinema n treat u n u'll PAY for it...yeah~~

good plan rite?I hav been planning for days d...

wahahaha...

ok la, i noe i'm talking nonsense...

u nvr really miss me also..

keep on thinking about maple only...

nvm, when i'm back, we'll get cash card n we ll buy 2x exp card n we'll train together...yeah....

i'm so smart...No wonder u admire me so much...

ok, i should stop praising myself (though it's all truth)...^^

k la, Zhen, I ll be back soon n hav fun....

make sure u wont angry wif me n chase me out of room half way ya...

i'm coming back for 2 months only, so be prepared to bear wif me...^^

see ya then..

miss n love u lot...

we shall think bout Mummy's present when i'm back k?

Take care...

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Frustrated and Disappointed~~~~

Sorry guys, I dun wanna tell my problems in public....

I want to keep it as low profile as i can...

but i need a way out...

so this's jz basically a post bout my feeling n wat i think of the incident...

dun hav to ask me wat happen as it is jz a small case n i'll handle it...

I jz watched a show today named "He is just NOT that into you"..

for me, its quite real n this's really reality...

guys alwiz dunno how 2 speak frankly...

they hope to gain sth without paying or putting effort...

girls are different..we really try our best to do it, especially in a relationship..

In the show, there's a guy alwiz mixing around with girls...

He alwiz keep in distance fr the girls...he gains their thrust, love n care without putting effort...

he scare of getting hurt...he think only of himself...

if u really wan 2 protect urself fr getting hurt, then dun step into a relationship....

if u dun even hav confidence in urself, dunno how 2 love urself, then pls learn to do so before u even think of starting of a relationship...

really, love is not a game..

love eventually leads to marriage....

so think properly before u say sth...

or if u think d other misunderstand u, then make urself clear...

dun run away n not solving the problem...

u're making things worse n the same thing ll happen over n over again...

I'm not scolding anyone or blaming anyone...

this's jz basically how i feel n think...

So guys, please make sure u know what u're saying n dun hurt urself n the gal at the same time..

it hurts, it really hurts...dun think only u urself ll only get hurt...

I know someone'll come n ask me wat happen n stuff...

no worry, everything ll be ok....

ll still love u all lot de...

dun worry..

take good care of urself...

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No Pictures Updates!!!

Sorry for not updating for long...

i alwiz wanted to update my blog..

too bad my new house internet connection is very bad...

I cant really log in to my own blog...

sad sad...

there's a lot of update in my life...

cant really show u all those pictures...

anyway...

life has been busy as usual...

HIV/AIDS conference on 4th of April is very successful...

about 100 ++ people attended the conference...

Food and Beverage is more than enough that i could even save my dinner...^^

Study week has passed...(5th ~ 12th of Apr)

Mood has been very down for no reason...

get hardly pay full attention on wat i'm doing n wat i nid to do...

Tonight is cool...having lot of fun wif May, Michael and Sharon...

full of laughter...

but when i'm alone in room typing my blog...

i feel very lonely and down...

act when i'm wif them, i try to get rid of my down emotion...

i dunno wat i m worry bout...

i jz feel unhappy...

i wan somebody 2 talk 2 n at the same time i wish 2 remain silent...

it sounds complicated but this is wat i m going through...

not knowing wat 2 do...

i'm tired act, very very tired...

but i couldnt get to sleep...

my fren teach me how 2 relax..

but i noe its useless....

cuz i nid 2 clear my burden in my heart b4 i could sleep...

n i couldnt tell wat my burden is...

can somebody help me? lend me a helping hand? please...

I'm really lost and i couldnt get back my way...

calling home doesnt really help...

act calling anybody wont help me anyway...

cuz i cant tell my prob...

sigh...

i should go 2 sleep now, i noe...

but i m restless....

forget it...

I ll jz lay on my bed n try 2 sleep...

Nite all...

all the best for those who are having exam n ll be having exam...

Take care...

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