Tired me~~~

Hey all...

i know i never update my blog 4 long...

not tat i dun wan 2 update la...

its not tat i m very busy...

but actually i m busy...

wat the hell i m talking about?

well...

its just everytime when i tried 2 post my blog..

it ll soon end up in my recycle bin...

haha...

I didnt sleep for days d...

really really tired..

i wish i could sleep...

these few nights i ll jz wake up middle in the night n couldnt continue my sleep...

heart beat going very very fast..

feeling very uneasy and unsecure...

y ah?

since my b'day, its like tat d..

i jz dun understand..

there's no assignments 4 me 2 rush..

there's test but its not final exam..

its jz mid-sem test...

so y i m feeling so uneasy?

weird...

I seldom cried nowadays d...

is it a good sign?

u probably think its a yes..

but i tell u...

its no...

my heart-ache...

feeling get hurt....

y ah?

y ppl likes to hurt me?

i really feel like crying...

its really hurt...

but i keep on telling myself..

en,be brave..

mayb its better 4 me 2 be alone...

so tat nobody can hurts me...

i keep on pretend i feel nothing...

but it actually hurts...

very much...

tell me...

wat should i do?

sigh~~~~

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Going Home Soon~~~~~~

Hi all...

sure u all miss me a lot right?

hey i m...

coming home soon...

ll be taking tonight's bus at 8.30p.m...

yeah...

n then i ll reach J.B tomorrow morning....

Yeah...

miss home a lot...

miss daddy,miss mummy,miss zhen zhen...

miss everything at home...

just wish 2 be at home now...

I'm in my school's library now...

updating my blog...again..haha...

everytime i ll just update my blog in library one..

weird sia...

but used 2 it d..

anyway...

i went 2 Gurney last night...

just 2 hav longan...

so cute of us...

May Hsin's d one who's driving...

bringing me n zach all d way fr USM 2 Gurney...

it takes almost 1 hour 2 reach there...

then we watched Dark Knight at 9.15p.m...

n by d time i got home...

its already half past mid-night...

then only i starts 2 pack things...

haha...

late sia..

so i get 2 sleep 3a.m in d morning...

got up at 6 sth d next day...

packing my room...

n i m coming home soon...

yeah...

i hav 2 keep on repeating this line cuz i m really happy...

n ya...

i jz done my Aiesec's chit-chat session...

its fun...

then only i noe i can talk so much...

its suppose 2 end between half an hour...

but i spent almost one hour talking 2 d senior...

its so much fun...^^

well...

guess tats all i wan 2 say...

n i m looking forward 2 get home...

so guys...

see ya in J.B...

i hope i can meet u guys...

but considering i hav tons of assignments 2 complete...

so it ll be kind of hard la...

haha...

anyway...

jz very happy i ll be hoome soon...

see u guys....

miss n love u lots...

muacks...

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U life is not EASY!!!!

I cant remember who told me...

s/he said tatonce u gone through ur form 6 life n get into U,

u wont wan 2 go back 2 form 6 life...

well,its absolutely d other way round 4 me..

i would rather go back 2 form 6 n study n study n study...

For me,Form 6 life is a sweet memory now...

I wish i could go back...

D 1st week in U is nightmare as i hav mentioned before..

n when i'm trying 2 settle down n get use to it..

i thought i did it successfully..

cuz everything seems nice n sweet 4 me..

But...

it all change when it comes to assignment..

oh my goodness..

its ton n ton of asignments...

I wish i know how 2 do...

its all so strange 2 me..

wats this?n wats tat?

wat should i do?How should i start?

Evrything ends wif a question marks behind...

Then i starts 2 cry...

seriously..

i really dunno wat 2 do...

when i m looking at my assignment lists n d deadline i'm suppose 2 pass up...

i feel so helpless n lost..

really dunno wat i should do next...

n i'm thinking of giving up...

forget bout U,forget bout degree,forget bout everything...

i just wan 2 go home..

its just so simple..

go home...

but i cant..

this's my dream...

this's my life..

this's my responsibility...

wat i m worry bout i dunno...

but God knows..

y should i be worry bout tomorow?

isnt it god's will 2 lead me here?

he knows his plan...

all i need 2 do is follow..

so i pray 2 God...

God,pls giv me strength n wisdom...

i dunnp wat'll happen 2 me..

but i noe u'll lead me..

i noe u'll always there 4 me..

u'll make a way 4 me when there seems 2 be no way...

So pls..

make me rely on u..

well,dear all..

pls continue 2 pray 4 me..

i really nid strength n courage 2 lead on..

i'm trying hard 2 settle down...

just hope everything ll run smooth...

miss n love u lots...

miss daddy,miss mummy,miss zhen zhen...

really miss home...

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